this is a cry for help i am trapped in a human body which is also trapped in a hotel room number 116 at [redacted] in charlotte nc. i am being held in a chokehold built out of sexual rabies that has overtaken me in regards to my partner/abusuer/master xenotrek, he is real, like in reality he is really there, he has me, he holds me, he keeps me from being able to be independent, i cant drive, he has the keys, he makes me get out and walk so many miles and thats the part i hate the most, almost as much as hhow ge necer apologizes anymore or as much as how i watched this coming from miles away and still let it happen or how the last time he was real with me was on valentines day but then shit just went back to being awful and bad. how can i escape if i cannot stop loving and wanting him? this is my ultimate muse, agony delightful, agony nonreplete, forever held in angst and longing loneliness. isolation once again.